why mood is changing?

Dear you,

I just came back from my holiday from Bandung, Jakarta and Jogjakarta in 2 weeks *grin*, on of my BFF was getting married in Bandung and Jogjakarta so i attended it twice. The feeling when i was there is..excited, of what will i do in the next day, where will i go for culinary trip or hunt something. But when its all stopped, just in a secon, i feel so empty.
 i suddenly remembered bout a song titled "Lucky" by Britney Spears in her early career that said about emptiness..it might correlated well in other's situations when you feel so lonely in the crowd.

Lets assume it caused by mood swing. I ever read about "mood" that we could actually controll, by our brain, and still until now i can not imagine how to controll my chemical thing flows inside my brain LOL. It's an interesting knowledge to be learned and i think that i need to find any books to understand it.

 The craziest time would be like you suddenly cry after you watched a comed movie, negatively, just because you can't understand why you have to cry. Or yea, i never did that situations but i ever felt so stressed after i laughed of a joke..err..seriously    i
 didn't ever understand why my mood is so easily changed.

My sign of birth is a gemini in astrolog, that figured by two girls that have different characters and habit. I often thought that it might be caused of my mood swing, but..i never ever trully believe on that kind of astrological things. So i just assume it's just my inabilities to controll my happiness.

 wait, why i have to controll my happiness? LOL. I wish i always be happy.


Ah i know what i have to do when i feel so dumb, i just need to close my eyes and smile. :)

 see you  then, i'll close my eyes now.

Big hug and kisses.