been spinning around...

hi folks...
how's your story today... must great right?

today, i did nothing, again...
you know it's so damn boring when you have nothing to do... and i feel it too...
i know that patience is a hard word to do.. but i don't know that it is so damn hard in real... this boring time sometimes made me think about everything in my life... and i did hate most of them... some are sounds like hard world, plan to do in the future, people's kindness, or else... yeah you don't need to understand what's in my mind but the point is... i hate being jobless!! God, i do hate it...

i even had a hard conversations with my Dad about one of it, and i hate his thought about his pride...
i think that it's him, not mine... none is mine... and he should know about it...
stop thinking like i'm nothing in this world, and the most important thing is your thought...

what if, i break all the rules to set myself free?
what if, i run away from all of my daily activities and go far far away?
what if, i think that it's okay to have no pride anymore?
what if, i kill all of disguise people in this world?

well ya, i ever thought about it, i do LOL
but, i have my own way to defend myself from them...
and all i need to know is you trusting me Dad...
please... i'm not a girl no more...
you just need to warn me, but all of the decisions are in my arms...

and the next problem will be, when will you understand me?
when will it come to me?

i grown up by years, not in a few days...
and my age is already mature..
it's my life either....
i need to be free to choose what i love...

uhmm... it's a bad blog i know LOL...
coz i said about my sadness here but, i need to share it or i'll blew myself out LOL

well, i'm just a 'lil bit calm now... ^_^
let's hope for a great day for tomorrow... amien...
and... don't forget to do shaum in Rajab folks... see ya....*_^

chasing the cheese...

hi folks...
how's your days? well i spent a couple days in nothing except walked around my room... did nothing... LOL

well i had a little thought about a word "chase" for me... i thought about it at my bathroom this day... (*i do didn't know neither why i have to choosed bathroom as my place to think LOL)
i realized that "chasing" is the greatest activity in the world... why? because we could always feel the curiousity  in each time we spent... and that's the point folks!! we should spotlight it first...

did you remember the time when you chased your girl/boy?
did you remember when you looking for a book, a bag, a bandana, a car stuff or else that you collect?
it's fun, isn't it?
and that's the point... the fun in chasing something...

but there's other question from me folks, why we have to felt that fun in curious?
hmmm... quite weird huh? we know that live patiently is so much  better than live in an "unsave" zone...
so, why we felt so damn happy in chasing something?
that we couldn't ever know the end of the story?

(*hey.. how many question up there? LOL)

then i suddenly remember about the thing that i loved when i was in senior high school... some kind of a series of comic books... **daydreaming
i met them again in a bookstore a couple months ago and i can't resist my self to only stared at them... coz i have no money to bought them **sad

i think i need to save a little money for them someday... **sigh

ow yeah, now i'm a jobseeker...LOL and finnaly i knew that it's so hard to be a jobseeker... i've been failed for a few times LOL.... i was so disappointed, i did, but it's fun either... well i love "chasing" remember? LOL
all that i need to do are praying and seeking... hope the best for me... God please help me to get it... Amin

well that's all folks... we could change the world to be a better world, see ya in my next diary... ^_*

colour me crazy...

good evening world...
how's your weekend pals... must be great huh?? :D

actually, i spent my saturday with my lovely boyfriend hohoo... well ya we just went to malls, looking for my BF's car stuff or a kind of that and i choosed to bought a new silicone case for my cell's... euhmmm... honestly, i'd like to bought a pink one, my fave colour, but what can i do?? i'm so disappointed in its colour mixed on my bronze cell's colour... it's so unmatchable :(

so, i decided to bought the yellow one... which i like the colour, **although i love pink most, and when i tried it in my cell's it's so better in mixed with my cell than the pink so i bought it... **God, i still want the pink most :'(

and tonite, i'm looking for the free downloadable themes for my cell, the yellow one, but i'm so mad becoz i think there's something wrong with the web **sigh....

it's so ridiculous if you hoping that everything's alright but it wasn't... **rolling eyes

well, i'd like to take a pict of the new face of my cell but how?? LOL
i still don't have any camera except my cell's cam... :D

ehmm... all that i want to say is...
I STILL WANNA BUY THE PINK ONE PLEASE... :(

owkay... i know i can buy it another times but honestly i have no money anymore LOL...
so yea... i'll save some for my next silicone case... **hoping

it's all for tonite pals... tomorrow i'll go check my files on my faculty, and some "other" files :D
so let's hoping for the great day for tomorow... amienn... :)

Hohoho.... i know i always back...

hello world...
how's your months  pals... i know there's must be a great great months u ever had... :D
actually, i already finished my final task and all of its revision either.. i'm so glad it could be done... finnaly.
but i know that it's not an ending of my life.. a a there wasn't... instead, i think i go in a harder situation that all people's ever had... (*ok... i crossed my fingers... maybe there aren't all people's had... but mostly had...)
well, i have to get a job soon... (**sigh) and i know it's not an easy thing to do... but i still have something to do in my faculty that i couldn't fix it immediately... so... it's my waiting time, i think, to get some study about job vacancies, test and interview... or so on.
i even bought some books to learn it... and you know, honestly, it's so better for me to read a series of comic books than read a chapter of those books LOL.
i don't know why but it's always frustating me in each time i read it... chapter by chapter...

many people said that "it wouldn't be hard as you think" but i don't think it's true so... ehm ya.. maybe because i haven't did it by myself? ~errrr yea it might be the reason...

heyy... let's forget about my grumbles for a while coz i wanna tell about my new cellphone... yay!! i bought it a few weeks ago. it's just completing my dream from a cellphone... it had a quite fast processor, a great shape and color, a complete feature, and many things to write here but... i'd better tell you what is it type... well it's a Topaz Brown of Nokia E72...(**clapping**)

FYI, most people in my country love to use BlacBerry as their cellphone becoz of its "online" server feature... they said that BlackBerry could "live" 24 hours a day and 7 days a week... well ya i do respect of BB's feature anyway, i do, but i have so many reason to not buy it and use it at this moment...

first, BB need to be setted up by an operator if i wanna use it... and to be setted up, i need to earn some money monthly... ehmm... i can't stand for that. beside it have an expensive price (**for me**), i don't have any job to cover my needed. ~well my new cell's no need any uncommonly setting from any operators so i wouldn't be that hard to use it :)

second, although i'm an "internet minded", i don't think that i need to be "online" 24 hours a day, well, what is it used for?? ~aaahhh... my new cell's could do that too in many new applications that i found... instead, my cell's battery could handle 3 days online without any charge... so?? :D

third, i like to use my cell's camera to get some moment of my life *LOL and i know that BB's camera is not that good, moreover i don't have any pocket camera so my cell's cam is my only way to take some pict... :D ~my cell's cam now have 5MP with a quite friendly way to used and quite amazing pictures of took ;)

fourth, ehmm... i have a big expectations of a screen qualities, wether it's my notebook, my television or my cellphone... so 65Kpix of cell's colour is not enough or me... ~so sorry BB...but my cell's screen have 16Mpix qualities  :D

so finnaly, i choosed not bought a BB and bought a Nokia that now i loved :D
and how about its performance?? i could say it's so damn good, more that i expected before... :)

well folks... i think i've told you enough story for now, i do sorry about the passed of my blog for a few moment... i do hate it too...
but i'll write again from now... :D
have a big smile folks... we know we always had... *_^

Yaawwnn...

wheww... we'll finnaly meet again my lovely blog...^^
it's been a while i didn't write here... it's not because i don't want to but my internet connection was down for a few days and it's quite bothering out...
i even can't accessed my e-mail account... neither facebook or twitter or this blog...

ehmm i really wanna write a lot this time because we passed a week in not wrote it here but... honestly i already forget what's happening in my last week... :(

so let's hoping that my internet connection will be okay in our next days so i could write all of my story for you all... :)

well have a nice day all... this rainy day wouldn't stop us to think, wouldn't we? ;)

Sunlight is never lies...

hi all...
it's so nice to write again... i've been busy for the last couple day... ehmmm not kind of a college busy thing  but tiring enough for me... well ya beside, i was burnt enough because of the sun... errrr i wasn't mean to but the weather was just BURN me, just like that...

not because my country is in the equator of the world so you think that it's a normal condition to get burnt here... ehm no... in fact, the weather lately is strange enough for us...

ow yea i thought i've exercised enough lately too, because i wore my lovely heels in my busy days LOL... i know i shouldn't do it on my next busy days... it's so exhausting LOL... i'm still in pain for hours even after i put those heels off...
so, i said agree for quote that said "being beautiful is so painful".... ehmm maybe i should change it a little become " being beautiful is SOMETIMES FEEL so painful" LOL

aaa have i told you about a stuff named "fake eyelashes" ??
i used to wore it only in special occasion such as my fam's gathering, someone's wedding or some kind of that, and i thought that it's so uncomfortable wore it... i swear... (*i even only borrowed it LOL)
but, i bought a pair a few days ago... and after i wore it... (*in my way, and i think i'm not good in wore it neither)... i still thought that i was right LOL... well,  i think i'd better save it carefully in my secret box for special occasion only... :D

ehm... i took a pict a couple days ago when i went home... i just wanna show you all HOW BEAUTIFUL IS MY CITY (*errr my way to home actually) on the photo, but you have to know that the fact was... WHAT A HOT CITY either... :D

it's a pict of my way home.. look at the sky... trust me it's hot...

 it's a pict outside my house... ehm what a bright sun...

well ya i wish i have a nice home like home on this photo... *sigh :D

 look at the trees... oh i wish i had them in my house... :(

at least i'll say thanks to Allah to gave my family a cozy home... :)

and... could you remind me about my minithesis?? i have to finished my college things immediately *sigh :(

well have a great day all... i wish you all the best for today... :D

Big fam need a big table...

last nite was an unpredictable nite because the first thing i thought about after woke up from my napping time is... work... back to my duty... but, it's all disappeared because of a sentence from my dad, "we have a big fam's dinner" YAAAAYY... it suddenly made my headache cured LOL...

so we went to the resto and taken a seat ehm ehm... after it... just fun that i could remember... :D

lots of foods, lots of fams, lots of joke, lots of music, lots of chats... that's FUN in a real way... :)
yaaa photos could explain much more then words... so enjoy the photos pals... *pardon the low light.. :D

like i said, big fam need a big table... :)

me and my cousin, we took a lot of photos together LOL

 

foods in my table... :)

  

 i'm so regreted in not order this cute taste of drink... :'(

 

my plate... :D

 

with my cousins... :)

 

 my 'lil bro... LOL

my cousins and my 'lil bro... :)

it's a cute big fam's dinner right...?? :)

other story of last day was my saturday's day with my lovely boyfriend... we spent it in a mall and just went around did window shopping...

at all... i love my saturday's day... yours must be great too right?? :)